i really dig this new snowboard cross event at the olympics. totally telegenic.

it seems all i ever do on this blog is whine, but when things are going well, it usually means i'm too preoccupied to post.

today, i am feeling listless. i really have no legitimate reason to feel this way, but it's been creeping up on my for the last several weeks. i've never had so much free time before, and i don't really know what to do with it. perhaps this is why housewives have babies.

honestly, i miss being a student. i miss having everything i do count toward some ultimately affirming goal. i miss the bonding between commiserating classmates. i didn't realize it could happen, but it has: somehow, my life has gotten even more pedestrian than it used to be. when i talk to people now, i have nothing exciting to report. "well, i'm working on a hockey book." "yeah?" "uh-huh." and that's it.

the tiresome winds are making the tree outside my window brush incessantly across the glass. it's almost enough to make me seasick just looking at it.

ugh. do i ever need to do something with my life. i mean, something beyond my 8:30-to-4:30 job. i need to start volunteering or something. now that i've cut down on freelancing and quit the physics journal, i need some other bandwagon to jump on. something i can feel genuinely good about. i am on a selfish quest for a cause; my soul is ravenous.