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ugh...

i was intending on sleeping in this morning -- i really was.

got to bed at 2 am, not because of some wild s&m party with php-laced mdma, but because i'd been working on my thesis all day. my wrists are even beginning to get sore, something that happens when i've been at the keyboard and track pad a little too long.

problem is, i didn't really add any actual content yesterday; i was mostly just fighting with LaTeX to get the formatting right and spending hours trying to learn what the fuck i'm supposed to do to get adobe illustrator to give me an equivalent of i can get in ms-paint in a matter of seconds. i love LaTeX nerds who insist that it's the best typesetting software EVER and anyone who uses anything else is beneath them. truth is, LaTeX is a pain in the ass, as i expected it would be. yesterday was a continuous cycle of debugging and compiling, re-debugging and re-compiling. i honestly think that although i'd have to format my list of figures, table of contents and bibliography manually, i'd be mostly done all of this formatting garbage if i were working with quark.

like anything that the physics computer 'purists' insist is the superior alternative (e.g. UNIX) LaTeX has all of these unintuitive obscure commands that take special packages i have to find on convoluted download sites that are among the most poorly organized website i've ever visited.

anyway, seems my body will not let me sleep until i get the lion's share of this monstrosity done. doesn't really bode well...

i think i might write my acknowledgements today: i would like to thank the administrators of the corporate whore of an institution, ubc, my cranky supervisor and my lab's stifling social environment for jointly conspiring to make these past two years of my life both unenlightening and painfully disillusioning.

mh.

back to work. at least i have the lovin' spoonful to keep me company: did you ever have to make up your mind? pick up on one and leave the other behind. it's not often easy, and not often kind. did you ever have to make up your mind?

i sure have. sweet lady physics will no longer be getting my love...in fact, i've been cheating on her for some time now.