so i didn't want to jinx it, but i guess there's no point being irrationally superstitious.

i submitted my thesis to a second reader yesterday.

my excitement is subdued, since it obviously isn't a done deal yet. with any hope, i'll be done before the end of this month.

now i wait. i hope the second reader doesn't ask me to rewrite the whole thing.

also, i now have to do a presentation about my thesis work in november; some requirement of the physics department that i didn't know about. i know i'm being utterly paranoid, but i'm afraid i'll give my presentation, and someone will ask me a simple question i totally can't answer and somehow, someone will rescind my master's degree.

ugh.

why do i care, anyway? i'm getting a new master's. maybe 'cause i figure i'm owed a degree considering how much the thesis shortened my life.

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my text and context prof sort of offered me a 'project manager' job today. it was weird. i thought he was proposing an internship, but it turns out it's for an academic journal grant proposal that's due in april. i want to do it, but i'd be so swamped. it'd be paid though. the more i think about it, the more i really want to be involved. i just don't know if i can handle the workload.

i don't know what to do for my internship. you, reading this: what do you think? i'm being torn in 6 different directions:

(a) ccsp press: the canadian centre for studies in publishing (the department that runs my mpub program) is going to be starting up its own press. tentatively, anyway. i'm totally stoked on being involved in this academic press right from the beginning. i think my internship report would be really relevant and hot.

(b) MOMENTUM: my beloved MOMENTUM is coming back...? that's the rumour, anyway. if it's being relaunched and the timing is right, i'd want to be involved. i could do editorial, design and management for a magazine that i love. i'm sort of wary of working for a publication that seems perpetually on the brink of collapse, though. i guess that doesn't really leave me with that many options.

(c) arsenal pulp press: small press that prints a load of really really awesome titles. they also share an office with geist. i think i could learn a lot, but the student who interned there this past summer says that she was relegated to menial duties. also, she didn't get paid.

(d) adbusters: talked to a dude at media democracy day and they seem amenable to taking interns. i'm not sure if i'd rather work in their editorial or design departmenti don't know if i'd be paid, though -- almost seems counter to their philosophy. that typically wouldn't be a concern for me -- lord knows i've done my fair share of unpaid thankless work out of love for the publication -- given my current situation, i'd sort of like to make enough money to eat.

(e) bcamp: the bc association of magazine publishers. one of the other students in the program used to work there and said there would be a lot to do. i've always wanted to work for a publishers' association and do some policy work. i don't know if i'd be paid, though.

(f) ubc press: i'd be on the ubc campus (where my sweetie and old friends and the ubyssey are) and, according to one of the students in the program last year, her supervisor asked for a report to be turned in at the end of the summer, meaning that she was essentially done her internship report for the program before september. also, she was paid.

mhmmmmm...it's something to mull over. i talked to my prof about all of this today, and he said 'they all sound like viable options.'

doesn't really help me make a decision. *shrug*